Have you ever wondered where you actually are in life? Stuff happens…big surgeries, loved ones dying, people losing businesses…what on Earth is going on? Does it make any sense to make plans for the future only when you see it explode without trying? Huh!

That’s kinda what my life has been like the past 5 years. I retired from one job, had a plan, was soooo happy, made some changes for myself personally, then…BOOM! The infamous pandemic caused our Music Studio to close, my best music bud got sick and died, I had major back surgery…umm…

Finances were all over the place. I was all over the place. Tried to take care of my friend as best as I could considering we weren’t living in the same State at the time. I ended up in physical therapy for stress I didn’t even know I was carrying in my upper back. I started teaching with a very fine new Music Studio…in fact I think the owner approached me, since I don’t remember applying to teach there. Then I ended up having back spine surgery and radiation to annihilate a spinal tumor. And, of course, still trying to climb uphill financially whilst recovering.

Then, as I was feeling so much better almost a year ago, my Church called and asked if I could run the office part time due to a situation that was unfolding. Couldn’t say how long they would need me but it’s almost a year and I’m still there, and they still need me. Six months after that my big brother died…great guy. Then 2 months after that my car was totaled by someone in a pickup truck while I sat staring at the red light 20 feet from my home driveway. You end up feeling defeated.

Then little by little the financial situation started to improve. Now it is on the verge of becoming quite good. The “new” car is a car 3 years younger than what I had but a good car and a good deal! I’m feeling very good physically. I’m happier and more upbeat. It’s like my life has made the turn back upward after going downward for a couple of years.

So how do you handle that? Make more plans? Nope! Apparently the Spirit has life under control. I am so convinced of that at this point in my life. I’m not going to “interfere” considering every time I come up with a good plan (ahem!) the Spirit slaps it into infinity and I’m left reeling. Oy vey!

One thing I have always read and am seriously trying to do right now is think more positive than any time in my life. Be upbeat. It’s so easy to be afraid of what might happen in the future. We stress about it and then wonder why it indeed happens. If we can’t control the future then whey are we making ourselves sick about it? The only “real” time is the present. And that is what I am trying to work on with more confidence and definitely prayer. Do what my low gut feeling tells me to do now and feel positive that it will grow for the future…and benefit me. I’ve started doing a couple of new things…like setting up a section of this Blog as a Subscriber Blog about professional musicians. I’m even thinking of taking several of my blogs since the beginning and forming them into a book. I’ve wanted to write a book for several years now.

At any rate, I guess getting the drama out of my life from the past few years has started to clear a path towards seeing a clearer future, one filled with my own talents/desires which are leading to new ideas. Interesting. It is very interesting to see how life unfolds on its own. They always say “things happen for a reason.” I guess that’s true. I wish it wouldn’t be so dramatic but…there is a plan. Don’t you wish you knew what it is in advance? I guess the Spirit just won’t share will It? Harumph!

So how’s your life going? What are you praying for? Is it unfolding the way you thought it would or what???? Think about it.

And as I always say, as you well know, it’s ok to have pie whilst you are pondering your life. It does help!

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